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Showing posts with label BoB. Show all posts
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Sunday, March 14, 2021

Spiders and Universal Love

When I was in high school the boy sitting behind me decided to make a funny joke. He took a beetle from the school yard and put it quickly under my blouse. I didn't expect it and was so shocked I couldn't move. The beetle was trying to get out scratching my skin. I was terrified. Screaming and crying I had no other choice than take off my blouse in front of everyone to take the beetle out. My face turned yellow then white. The humiliation and the disgust from the beetle legs scratching my skin was so big that I almost passed out. 

It took me years to recover. But the truth is I've never fully recovered. I was vomiting every time I saw a beetle or a spider. The spider legs were just like beetle's one's and the spider movements reminded me of beetle's one's too. So I got a spider and beetle phobia and nothing could help me to recover from this nightmare. Every time I saw a spider or a beetle I was shaking, screaming and crying. I even couldn't look at pictures containing their images. I was already convinced that this is my life and I can't do anything to change it. 

But... the Universe is a very smart, loving and beautiful living being. And she obviously decided to change my fear into something else. I moved out eight months ago and went to live in another house with a cute little garden. I was so happy until the moment I've realized that this house was a home for literally hundreds of spiders. I was more then terrified. I didn't know how I was going to survive there without going crazy. It was really, really hard. We were cleaning the house from them but several hours later new ones would come from somewhere. I was so desperate. Constantly trying not to vomit looking at them. 

One day I was cleaning the bathroom and a spider fell from the ceiling directly in the bathtub full with water. It was drowning in front of my eyes but I couldn't even look at it. It was so disgusting to me. The spider was moving desperately, its tiny legs frantic trying to get out. 

And then my heart just cracked. I couldn't look at it struggling to survive, I just couldn't let it die. Then I forced myself to look at it and suppress my vomiting desire. I told myself "this is a living creature, a living being like every other being on this planet. It deserves to live. It deserves help, like I would deserve help if I was the drowning one". 

And then I saw the beauty in this spider. I saw and felt the Universe's love in this little spider. The love she felt when she created it. "It wont do anything bad to me" I said to myself. I just need to help it get out of the water. And I did it. I took some paper and put it under its legs so it could hold to the paper and left it outside the bathtub. I was shaking and my face was white as snow. But I did it. 

The next day I tried again. Saw one spider in the garden. Went there and forced myself to look at it. And I was looking at it so long that I didn't even remember how long I'm staring. And I felt that love again. This was just a tiny little creature. So fragile and innocent. And then I realized that there is no fear when love comes. There is no fear bigger than love. I still can't touch them but I'm slowly getting there.

- Тонева Жасмина 2021 (shared with permission)



Tuesday, January 28, 2020

Finances

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The Past
Ace Swords - In a general context, the Ace of Swords represents new ideas, new beginnings, new projects, new plans and breakthroughs. It also indicates intellectual ability, mental clarity, clear thinking and the ability to concentrate. This Minor Arcana signifies communication, vision, force, focus and intensity. It represents making correct decisions, being assertive and justice and authority. The Ace of Swords can indicate good news in relation to legal matters or legal contracts or letters that may be to your benefit. 

Current
Ten Pentacles - In a general context, the Ten of Pentacles represents solid foundations, security and happiness in all areas of your life. Like all Pentacle cards it is usually connected to financial or material issues so you can expect especially good things in those areas of your life when it appears.You may be feeling very close to your family at this time, as the Ten of Pentacles can signify domestic harmony. Life should be stable and settled when it appears in your Tarot reading. 

Future 
Four Cups - Focus on your strengths, on what you do have and can do, not what you can't do and don't have. If you're not where you want to be financially, make specific goals and plans about where that is, and then chart the steps it will take you to get there. Look your financial situation squarely in the eye, know exactly where you are financially, as this can only help you. In a general context, the Four of Cups Tarot Card can represent missed opportunities, remorse or regret. When this Minor Arcana card appears in your Tarot spread it comes with a warning to be mindful of the opportunities or offers available to you. You may be inclined to dismiss them as insignificant now but you could realise later that they would have led on to amazing things. The future position is actually a strong placement for this card and one that is more often beneficial to you than the card’s reputation might indicate. The Four of Cups takes on a wisdom of selective standards. The older we get, the more we know what to avoid as our intellect combines with experience to make us turn down certain offers. 

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The Fool
To see the The Fool generally means a beginning of a new journey, one where you will be filled with optimism and freedom from the usual constraints in life. When we meet him, he approaches each day as an adventure, in an almost childish way. He believes that anything can happen in life and there are many opportunities that are lying out there, in the world, waiting to be explored and developed. He leads a simple life, having no worries, and does not seem troubled by the fact that he cannot tell what he will encounter ahead.To meet him in a reading can also be seen as a call to the risk-taking part of your own character. He inspires courage, for he understands that every day is a chance to open up new areas in your life, and with that comes a mixture of anticipation, wonder, awe and curiosity. The Fool is there to show that you can never really tell what lies ahead, and you can only greet it with joy. 

This is generally considered a positive card but there is a caveat. The caveat being that it is important to take time to be sure that you are looking where you're going. Trusting yourself to take a step into the unknown is one thing, but doing so without any thought whatsoever may be a mistake.

Summary
The stage is set. You are backed by the universe, have courage, trust yourself.

We hope we have provided insight into your situation.